So, I'm finding now that I'm not in school anymore, I need to keep making up little deadlines for myself. Not work related of course, because that would just be way too constructive. That and we work with daily deadlines at work, so there's nothing long-term to worry about. So, of course I need to make something otherwise enjoyable, like reading a book or even watching tv, into a stressful, deadline driven activity.

Example: I currently have a pile of books to read and won't let myself buy anymore until I finish them. Well, buying books is one of my all-time favorite activities, so I need to work through this pile quickly so I can get back to it (other people can by all means buy them for me and then that doesn't count). So, instead of enjoying the fact that I have all these great books to read and won't be new-bookless for months, I've decided I need to finish them all in the next two months. So I can buy more. And stress over reading them.

Make sense? Nope, not at all.

So, I got to thinking that maybe I need some good long-term goals.

Well, I already have one: to save enough money to be able to move out of parents and in with TJ by the end of next summer. Well, it's a good goal, but there's nothing to do to actively pursue it. As it is, I'm amazed with this whole online banking thing and check my account at least twice a day, usually to find the exact opposite of what I want to happen in there. So, this goal sucks at keeping me occupied.

So, work goals - well, my daily work goal is to stay busy enough that I don't get tempted to kill myself with a highlighter (I actually just realized that highlighters are the only writing utensil I have at my desk...odd). I already know they're going to hire me permanently, and there's no real possible promotion just yet. Hmmm...maybe a good job-related goal would be to find a new one... nah, not yet.

I tried the wieght-loss goal, but that has this tendency to turn into a scary obssession with me in which my every thought relvolves around a combination of one or more of the following things: food, weighing myself, guilt, exercise, candy, and french fries. And more guilt. So, of course I had grilled cheese and ice cream for lunch today.

So, I suppose my new short-term goal is to find a good long-term goal. Hmm....I'll have to think over this while I play with my assorted highlighters.